Monday 15 April 2013

Virgo Woman Character

Hello yellooww.. On this boring Monday, I wanna writing about...... myself :D. It has been a long time since the last post while I was talking about myself. So this time I wanna talking about me, a Virgo woman.. Here we go..
Yesterday my friend tell me about my zodiac character, and some of it are true, and it's inspiring me to writing about it on my blog to make my reader know a bit about me, maybe? Lol.. (P.s. this entry mostly I take from an article on website, but I also add some of my own character there and counting it as Virgo character. Lol!)

People look up to Virgo for friends because we are straight thinkers and solve problems logically. We are truthful, loyal and determined. Some people might find us cold or emotionally detached because we live in our minds, not in our emotions and feelings. 
Virgo might try to analyze and control a friend's life, BUT only with the idea that they will improve their life, not purely for the sake of controlling. Be patient with me and understand that my recommendations are only to make your life better.. :) 

Virgos are very intelligent, we have an excellent memory and a highly analytical mind. This makes us good investigators and researchers, however sometimes we seem be a vindictive.. We also have the ability to probe into a person's emotions and we can often see into people and detect what their motives are.

We will say the feel okay or everything is alright even when it's not. Virgo has an unpredictable and sometimes unstable temperament, yet a bit perfectionist.

Virgos want to be of use, they need to be important and essential to everyone in their lives and in everything they do. Deep inside, Virgo is very sensitive and they need to be appreciated for all the things they do. When is Virgo is offended or hurt, they may never show it. 

Virgo Love and relationship
A Virgo woman is earthly and we may seem cold and detached, but underneath the timid - reserved surface, lies the real woman. A strong, passionate woman with a great capacity for strong devoted love. We will play hard to get, because we are worried about exposing our emotional vulnerabilities and getting hurt. 

So, how to attract me? Lol
Virgos need intellectual stimulation. Impress us with facts and details. We requires patience and you will have to court us and work hard to impress us. However in fact, we are very simple. We like people who are sincere. We often notice to the little things. We don't need a big things, just do a small thing but meaningful, then we can easily moved and fall in love by it. Once I'm in love, it is for the long term.. :")
Once I love someone, bestfriend or maybe a man, we will put their problem higher than ours. We emphasize to honesty. We can't be betrayed, because it will be difficult to recover our trust later. In friendship or relationship, we do not have to always talk non stop everyday. The essential is we still get in touch and know each other latest news.
We are the moody one. Sometimes we can be so extrovert, but the next time we become an introvert one. But still, we play a lot on our rational, not our feeling. We don't like let anyone know our feeling. When we sad, we prefer to say at home and do our hobbies. We doesn't share it on any social account such as Twitter or whatsoever. 

However people notice us as a cold one and an independent woman, in fact we still need a warm hug. We seem complicated sometime, but believe me, we are so simple, friendly, and have a very warm heart! :D




Sunday 7 April 2013

Forgiving is difficult, but it's much more difficult to bear a grudge in our heart

I learn something again today, it's still relating with my last post. Forgiving is difficult, but it's much more difficult to bear a grudge in our heart.

Finally today I hang out with my friend I had mentioned on the previous post, and just say the truth, I feel so bored because of my deep disappointed to her. But I try to being nice however I know I'm still treat her bad today, Lol. We do not talk much, but at least we still talking each other. I'm sure she aware of my attitudes change, but she still play her role goodly. Do you know the main problem in our friendship? Because we never want to talk and ask. I dont want to tell her and she doesn't want to ask me.
Actually I've already talked to her that I'm disappointed about something, and she never really care to discuss about our problems. She prefer to pretending there're no problems. Since then, I never know how to solve the problem around us.. Maybe one day I must to say directly about all my 5 years pain.. Just wait for the good moment.
Since I have a deep hurt on my heart and feel so annoyed by her, I can't to be nice to her. And the bad things is, I love her as much as I hate her. It makes me so suffering. In this 5 years, I have already forgiving her for so much times. I dont know how long I must to wait for her to understand me oneday. My brother said, 
"One thing you can do to heal your pain is just let her go.. Let she does everything she wants, and just be a good friend for her without asking her be nice for u."

So the question is, can I let her go? If I let her go, I will never care about her anymore. But how can, how about our 5 years memories and friendship? And my heart answer me,

Matthew 18:21-22

Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, “Lord, how many times shall I forgive my brother or sister who sins against me? Up to seven times?”

Yesus answered, “I tell you, not seven times, but seventy-seven times.

Before, I think this is impossible for me to forgiving someone for so much time. But now I know, it's possible. Why? Because I already love her as my own sister. And believe me, Forgiving is difficult, but it's MUCH MORE difficult to bear a grudge in our heart. So maybe I change my mind, she will always be my bestfriend. Whatever she does, I just wish that I can have an open heart to forgiving her, and I really wish she can try to understand me..


Sorry for recently mellow posts. I'm promise this is the last. ^^

 


Saturday 6 April 2013

never say something sweet if u never really mean it

Dear all of my readers..
Please u dont ever do this to everyone u met, especially your best friend. This is my real story, a tragic story that i've never told to public before.. I wont tell u the detail, but I will tell u the lesson: never say something if u dont really mean it. Whatever it is, please dont say anything sweet to someone if u NEVER mean it. 

U will never know how hurt it is. It's so hurt hurt hurt and i feel so sick because this hurt now. I was sobbing several times before, but mostly i just silent in my hurt. I think everybody must be so surprised to read a stupid post of mine on the early morning bcoz I never written something like this..

Let me tell u a quick story. I have a friend. We have already spent a lot of times and moment together. Some of our interests are same and suddenly we have already became a bestfriend. She has the other group of friends and me too. But i try to take her to my group, but she doesn't. She told me several times how bored she was with her group. She said the only friend who know her so well is only me. She even told her mom that im her bestfriend, can u see how sweet she is? And I feel so happy since I also already considering her become my bestfriend. And u know what she does later?

She can put a good mask on her face. She act so good and laugh together with her groups, and when she back to me, she said that she felt guilty coz she is the only one who didnt get their jokes. But every times she said it, I cant find the truth. I only can see that however she dont really like her group, but they have a good friendship and she treat them better than she does for me.

Times go on.. I dont mind with anything, i just know that she is and will always be my bestfriend and feel a bit sorry for her to know her bad position with her group. However honestly, I have already get a hurt by her attititude on the moment..

Times running and running.. I always hope she can change her attitude to me. I mean, dont complain about them and keep saying that i'm your best friend if ur action is not appropiate with ur words. And now, I get myself in a deep hurt. I cant hold this longer. Do whatever u want, friend. U will always my friend, but not bestfriend anymore. I know maybe im too melancholic and emotion when im typing now, but I really wish she can stop call me as her best friend start from now if she never really mean it. So guys, once again I tell ALL of u, pleaseee..NEVER say something SWEET, if u DONT really mean it. Coz it's hurt so much. Good nite :)