Tuesday, 22 July 2014

Another mellow post maybe? I force myself to never show others about my feeling except happiness. But I'm not that kind of strong peoplee.. So, here is my diary on cloudy Tuesday..

I'd dreamed my best friend these two days.. There, I was holding his hand whenever and wherever we went just simply because I was too afraid of losing him, however I am. Tbt, I've only dreamed him 3 times since the day he gone. So these two days are great since I can finally meet him and doing stuff together. I miss him so much.

I was on my way to my office and heard an ambulance sirens. My tears came out as sudden as the sirens came.
I was searching a contact begins with his initial, and my eyes stop on his name.
I was passing a restaurant we'd ever mentioned to try but we never, and I just pause for a while.
I was online on facebook and occasionally saw his name on my forever-offline friend list. 

I can never really understand why he go this fast. From all the friends I have, why must him. For a century of my lifetime, why should now. There're some moments I keep asking myself why-should and how-if questions. The truth that all of my chats' notifications will never changed to be read is just....hurt. You will never understand my feeling, but for a thousand times I said, I miss him, miss him, miss him, miss him, miss him. He is so nice and I miss him. He is the only friend who didn't ashamed told others including his girlfriend, that the only congratulation he'd been waiting for the whole day was mine, and I miss him. He is the one who always trusts that I'm strong and I can always pass the storm in my life and I miss him. He is he is he is whatever anything bout him, I miss him. 

That are infinite numbers between 0 and 1. There's .1 and .12 and .112 and an infinite collections of others. Of course, there is a bigger infinite set of numbers between 0 and 2, or between 0 and a million. Some infinities are bigger than other infinities. I want more numbers for him than he got. --(edited) Fault in Our Stars, pg. 260

Tuesday, 20 May 2014

Unity in Diversity

Hay, it's been a long time since the last post ya. Recently I re-read my old post and I just found out I still haven't finished my Shanghai post. Lol.. Will update it soon maybe. The last post of Shanghai was on 2013 btw, lols. Well, today I just suddenly feeling in mood in writing and I have several topics on my mind right now, but since it's 10 pm now and I should have a task to do tomorrow morning, I decide to just write down one post on today. 

Today's post is about unity in diversity. I had a lesson discussed about this topic on my first year in university, and I didn't feel something special on this topic. People says we should experience first to get the feeling, so do I. Last week when I went home from my office by public transportation, there was something a bit irritating happened. I went home by KWK (the red small car, not the big bus). Since it is a small car, there's no buskers or beggars there. So I just sat there on my way home as usual and the traffic lights was red. Suddenly a mid-age man came in and sat there. When I recognized him as a beggars, I though he just want to sang any song or begged, but what he was doing was sat there and was talking (I forget what the exact he said, but he said something like..), "Please give me a money. I'm here is just begging, at least I don't do any criminality. You are Chinese don't only know how to colonize Indonesia. U stay here, and it's not your country." Then when finally only one people who gave him money, he went out from the car after mumbling that Chinese are stingy and something I didn't hear too clear. 

Well, I felt nothing on the moment actually, because it wasn't my first time listened something like that. But his words was just repeating on my mind and I felt a bit mad. Coincidentally all of the passengers are Chinese and there were only 2 Indonesian. Maybe that's why the man said something irritating to us. But he really doesn't have any right to blaming at us and says that stupid words.

I don't know what happened in the past between Indonesian and Chinese. I just know Chinese were being persecuted on 1998. The motive of doing these cruelty I also have no idea. But it just the past. I know we all (both Indonesian and Chinese) are still do some discrimination. But here we are, we both are just one package. We live together for century, together built this country be better. No us (Chinese), I don't know what happen to Indonesia actually. And they just do racism to Chinese! However Portuguese, Dutchman, Japanese colonized Indonesia longer than China (hey, had China colonized Indonesia, btw? I didn't study the history well), and they ADORE these Japanese, Portuguese, bla bla bla-man. Wtf! 

Beside all, I remember one thing that very memorable during my summer course to Shanghai. As I told on my previous posts, I met with new friends from all countries. We spent time together, having lunch and dinner together, traveling the city till night, playing together. Our group was consist by Indonesian, Spaniard, Korean, African, and Chinese. We come from all different countries with all different cultures and languages. Once, we all were on the MRT, and we're talking and joking very fun. I saw other local people were watching at us curiously, and we didn't care. We were really enjoying our time, and all the differences are not a matter at all.

Surprisingly, we even played the same childhood game! I can't describe the game because it has no name. But I always thinking only Indonesian who know these games, but they DO know and we played it together, recalling the best time of our childhood memories, and if u want to know how was I feel, i felt VERY AMAZING. For sure, I stopped and looked around all my new friends, seeing they were laughing, telling a silly jokes, spending quality times, didn't care with all differences lie between us, it so PRICELESS.
Trying to have we-fie without any narcissistic stick

We can blending and mingled with all people we just met. Why Indonesian and Chinese who had already lived together for years still can't get this unity in diversity spirit? I'm looking for this happen yah. :)

Wednesday, 16 April 2014

我刚刚读一位一年级的学生写关于父亲的写作练习, 没想到她写得非常精彩,让我感动得很。




Sunday, 16 February 2014

Try to not Always Searching a New Excuse for Yourself

The other random post today.. Hahaha.. I decide to be active again on this blogger. Dan hari ini gw lagi pengen menulis hal-hal super random simply because I miss writing. Beberapa hari terakhir gw berpikir tentang beberapa hal random yang aga menyentuh hati gw, mulai dari aga emosi sampe terharu. Tapi karena gw biasanya 1 topik aja bisa dibahas panjang, jadi hari ini gw share 1 topik ter-hot di otak gw aja saat ini. Hahahaa..

Gw akhirnya kemaren melewati UAS terakhir selama perkuliahan S1 ini, sedih ga sedih sih. Cuma seperti biasa, saat-saat ujian gw selalu berpikir tentang hal ini, cuma baru kali ini gw inget buat share disini. Ini adalah pemikiran 'keras' gw pribadi bagi anak-anak males yang nilainya kurang. Jadi maaf yah bagi yang merasa ga setuju atau apapun, gw bener-bener cuma menyatakan pendapat dari sisi gw sendiri. Kalau kurang berkenan, monggo dipindahkan channel blogspotnya. :D

Dari jaman duduk di bangku sekolah gw selalu menemukan orang pintar suka dikatain pelit saat ga kasih jawaban pas ujian, kemudian dicemooh sama anak-anak pemalas. Note it, anak pemalas, bukan anak bodoh. Sebenernya bagi gw, manusia dibagi jadi 2 tipe doang: orang yang mau berusaha dan yang tidak mau berusaha. Orang yang mau berusaha ini yang akhirnya mendapat gelar anak pintar, sedangkan orang yang ga mau usaha yang dapet gelar anak kurang pintar.

I know bagi teman-teman sekitar gw, gw terhitung sebagai anak super rajin, dengan IP tinggi, mengagungkan nilai, dll, dll. I dont care all of your opinion actually. But if I can clarify something, I do NOT care for all those things i've mentioned. I just DO care for the value of myself. Yes, gw ga peduli nilai dan IP dan apapun itu, gw hanya peduli sama nilai dari diri gw sendiri. Mungkin gw akan membahas tentang 'nilai diri' yang gw junjung di post lain suatu hari nanti, but not now.

Dulu pas kecil gw bukan tergolong anak pinter loh, kalian boleh bertanya pada temen-temen SD gw kalo ga percaya. Siapa Reina? Wkwkw.. Pas masuk SMP dan SMA gw bisa dihitung sebagai anak yang lumayan pinter. Pas gw masuk kuliah, gw dihitung sebagai anak amat pinter. Woh, suddenly I feel so surprise while typing this coz I've also just realized this thing too loh. Hahahaa.. Tapi menurut gw sendiri, gw ga mengalami perubahan besar dari SMP-kuliah ini. Dari SD ke SMP gw akuin emang gw mendadak kaya dapat penyadaran akan apa kewajiban gw saat itu: belajar. So I study as hard as i can. Tapi kenapa value diri gw kaya naik tajam ya di mata orang lain? Sebenernya yang gw pikir adalah, 
Bukan value gw yang menaik, tapi value orang-orang di sekitar diri gw yang menurun. 

Sekolah gw dulu bukan sekolah unggulan, tapi murid-muridnya emang termasuk murid yang 'punya otak untuk berpikir mau maju'. Oke, bukan gw ngatain anak-anak yang seperkuliahan sama gw saat ini, seriusan, pardon for my blak-blakan thought and words yah, tapi seriusan, gw merasa inilah anak Indonesia. Ga semua anak Indonesia seperti ini, tapi karakter yang mendominasinya adalah yang seperti ini. Let me describe some evidences yang bikin gw geleng-geleng kepala. 
1. Besok ujian susah, sadar keterbatasan kemampuan, ga belajar tapi santai-santai dan jalan-jalan.
2. Sadar belom selesai belajar bahan ujian atau belom bisa, bukan sibuk mengejar ketinggalan, tapi sibuk nanya nomor tempat duduk ujian berharap bisa duduk dekat orang pinter.
3. Saat kertas ujian dibagiin, bukannya baca dan usaha dulu, tapi langsung mulai resah liat kiri kanan mencari celah nyontek. Yes, mereka langsung berusaha, tapi mulai usaha nyontek, bukan usaha bikin sendiri dulu. 

Hmm, gw ga menyalahkan sih. I always trying to put my shoes on others, actually, so I try hard to not blaming anyone, tapi ga untuk kasus ini. Menurut gw yah, orang-orang macam ini sangat ga pantes buat dikasih contekan dari gw (kalo dari orang laen sih gw bodo amet. Itu hak orang yang memberikan). Buat apaan gw belajar cape-cape terus dengan begonya baiknya bagi-bagi jawaban. Ini ibaratnya gw membagikan sedekah ke pengusaha miliyuner. Mereka ga pantes buat dibagi kan? Hahahahaha

Kalo emang mau nyontek, it means mereka peduli sama nilainya. Kalo peduli sama nilainya, it means harusnya mereka berusaha belajar dong. Kalo uda belajar tapi tetep ga bisa, it means belajarnya kurang maksimal. Kalo belajarnya uda maksimal tapi tetep ga bisa, it means ada yang salah dengan cara belajarnya. And so on. Intinya, 
Try to not always searching a new excuse for yourself

Tapi walau gw sangat keras, gw akan tetep bagi sontekan ke orang yang emang membutuhkan. Misal orang yang sebenernya beneran mau belajar, cuma musibah dateng, pas h-sekian ujian tau2 sakit parah ga bisa belajar. Ini kan bukan dia yang mau yaahh.. Tapi orang terkena musibah ini biasanya tetep gw liat sih dia sehari-harinya emang mau usaha atau ga. Bukan pilih kasih, tapi yah karena bagi gw, orang-orang yang ga mau usaha sama sekali not deserved to be helped. 

Hmm gw liat-liat gw aga cocok jadi penulis dengan gaya kritikus menancap hati nih. Lololol.. Maap atas keblak-blakan yang secara tidak sengaja menyinggung hati. Gw menulis ini semata-mata untuk curhat karena gw suka merasa panas kalo lagi mikir ini,---well, tenang gw bukan baru aja mengalami dikata2in pelit, dll. Kayanya temen-temen gw terlalu takut buat ngomong sama gw, apalagi buat ngatain gw. Wakakakaa.. Tapi serius, gw rasanya panas ngeliatin mental cupu anak-anak Indo ini--dan juga berharap kalau kalian termasuk orang yang pemalas, kalian bisa lebih berjuang lagi untuk menjadi rajin. Kalo males rajin, yah minimal jangan ngoce kalo ga dikasih contekan sama anak 'pinter', toh yang bikin kalian ga bisa jawab soal ujian itu diri sendiri, bukan mereka kan..
Selamat berjuang, yeah!

Friday, 10 January 2014

人这一生,其实是干嘛? 生活其实是什么东西?







Thursday, 2 January 2014

best thing that ever come in my life

Lama banget ga menulis disini. Tahun kemarin gw aga males2 nulis gitu, entah di tahun baru ini gw akan mulai rajin nulis apa malahan semakin males ya. Hehehe.. Tulisan gw hari ini akan menjadi tulisan yang serius, oleh karena itu gw akan menggunakan kata-kata baku. Siap-siap terpesona.. *apasih*

Tahun 2013 memberikanku banyak sekali hal-hal yang berbeda dari tahun sebelumnya. Aku belajar banyak, tapi kejadian yang terbesar adalah aku mengalami 2 hal terbesar dalam kehidupan di tahun lalu, pernikahan dan kematian.

2013 memberikanku kesadaran akan tibalah saatnya dimana kami (orang dengan umur sepantaran denganku) sudah cukup dewasa untuk membenah rumah tangga. Temanku menikah di akhir tahun ini. Sungguh kejutan yang menyenangkan. Tapi mungkin aku tidak menikah dalam jangka waktu dekat ini. Hahaha..

2013 tidak hanya memberikan sesuatu yang indah, tapi juga menyakitkan. Pada malam natal Bapa memanggil satu orang terbaik, terhebat, sahabat yang pernah kutemui dan miliki, Rico Johari. Aku tidak mengingat apakah aku pernah membahas tentangnya, karena ia ada begitu saja. Sampai menurutku, aku tidak perlu menulis namanya lagi karena memang dia selalu ada untukku. 

Aku tidak pernah berpikir tentang kematian. Menurutku kematian identik dengan orang-orang yang telah berumur dan orang yang memiliki penyakit. Sedikitpun tidak pernah terbersit dalam pikiranku apa yang terjadi apabila temanku, apalagi teman baikku meninggal. Kami (aku dan Rico) berdiskusi tentang banyak hal. Kuliah, pertemanan, asmara, karir, masa depan, bahkan pernikahan. Kami bertanya-tanya siapa kira-kira teman kami yang akan menikah duluan, sayangnya kami tidak pernah berpikir siapa yang akan meninggalkan kami terlebih dahulu. 

Ia adalah salah satu hal terindah yang pernah hadir dalam hidupku. Ia mengajariku banyak sekali hal-hal yang tidak kupikirkan sebelumnya. Ia mengenalkanku kepada dunia baru yang lebih indah, membuatku menjadi seseorang yang lebih baik dan pemberani. Tidak pernah sedikitpun aku berpikir ia akan meninggalkanku secepat ini, semudah ini, yah Bapa.. 

Lelucon, suara nyanyian, tawanya semuanya masih melekat jelas sekali.. Obrolan yang kami lakukan hampir setiap hari.. Kebersamaan yang kami lewati.. Aku benar-benar tidak percaya. Bahkan setelah aku melihat tubuhnya terbaring tak bernafas malam natal lalu. Wajahnya masih seperti biasa, hanya saja bibir dan lehernya yang mulai menghitam. Apa yang terjadi, Bapa? Bahkan ia masih memanggilku sehari sebelum pergi, walau kami tidak berbicara banyak.. Seandainya Kau memberikanku kesempatan melihatnya sukses.

"Ia akan menjadi sukses," aku mengatakan itu kepada ibuku suatu hari. ("Lu terlalu overestimate gw, Rei!". Aku yakin sekali ia mengatakan itu saat ini). Ya, aku sungguh-sungguh. Ia anak yang pintar dan mau berusaha.  Ia benar-benar akan sukses, seandainya dia diberikan kesempatan untuk membuktikannya. Walau bagaimanapun juga ia sudah sangat membanggakan kami, teman-teman terdekat, juga keluarganya.

Teman yang amat sangat sangat sangat sangat teramat baik yang pernah kumiliki, aku tidak melebih-lebihkan, sungguh. Tidak bosan kukatakan ia benar-benar merupakan teman yang sangat baik, sangat positif, sangat dewasa, sangat multitalented, sangat jayus, sangat menghibur, dan sangat disayangi semua orang. Aku menyesal dengan semua ini. Tapi aku terus membuat diriku percaya bahwa ini yang terbaik. Ia menyadariku bahwa kehidupan ini terlalu rapuh.. Manusia benar-benar tidak memiliki kuasa apapun. Aku hanya bisa berusaha terus melakukan perbuatan baik karena kita benar-benar tidak bisa memprediksikan masa depan. 

Terima kasih Bapa, Kau memberikanku kesempatan untuk mengenalnya, berteman dekat, berbagi banyak hal, menjadikannya teman terbaikku, membiarkanku menjadi teman terbaiknya. Aku amat sangat bangga bisa menjadi salah satu orang yang spesial dalam hidupnya. Aku tidak akan pernah melupakanmu, sahabat dengan inisial yang sama denganku, RJ. I really really proud of ever being one of your bestfriend. Thank you for every stories we have talked, every moments we have shared, thank you for everything. Now, for the first time I admit that u were gone.. May you rest in peace, Rico Johari

Friday, 18 October 2013

Shanghai post #3: Good Places to be Visited in Shanghai #1

After spend 6 weeks in Shanghai, I recommend you some places u should go when u come to Shanghai. But I easily forget place's name, I wish I can do my best to remembering the name of the good places I wanna mention here. Hahaha..So here is the list of places u SHOULD go when u in Shanghai:
1. 外滩 Wai Tan, The Bund
People say this is the symbol of Shanghai. The view is so great with the skyscrapers and European architecture on the both side. Blue sky and the lake just make the view excellent. I went both in day and night and I can't describe how beautiful it was, so I don't know which is more beautiful in day or night. You should try both because the view is just totally different between day and night. You can take a public boat to explore the beautiful lake about 5 minutes. It cost very cheap, I forget but i think only around 3-5 RMB. U can see the beautiful boats, beautiful buildings with beautiful lights. Perfect!
The Bund in the day
The Bund in the day. Fall in love with the blue sky and colourful umbrella
The Bund in Night
The Bund in Night

 2. 南京  Nanjing East  Road
The main road that located almost in the center of Shanghai is one of the never sleep area in Shanghai, Nanjing Road. Nanjing Road divided as Nanjing East and West Road, and my favorite and I know everybody agree with me is Nanjing East Road. Nanjing East Road block any vehicle to cross around. It looks so sophisticated and also beautiful. It also sells some local foods or snacks. This is a real Shopping World! and as other places in China, I found out a group of people are dancing, playing a music, etc. Feel so fun yet romantic.
Me and Jess
I love the red roses there.. So beautiful

Nanjing East Road in day

3. 田子坊 Tian Zi Fang
The other beautiful place in Shanghai that u really should to come. This is a small beautiful alley that I will never realize its existence if my friend didn't invite me to come to, Lol. However it is very famous and attract many foreigners. It has a lot of cafes and (maybe) a delicious foods. Yeah I didn't get the chance to try anything in here coz I always came too late. P.s. the foods here maybe a bit expensive.
Tian Zi Fang in night

Tian Zi Fang in the day. (I had never gone here in the day. I find this beautiful photo in Google and share it. Never know that Tian Zi Fang has a great view although it is a bright day)

Lucky me, I still had a chance to taste the famous of "Modern Toilet" in here. This is an ice cream restaurant that has an unique design. They make it as a toilet! U can see all the decorations are closet and also for the ice cream and cute merchandise.

Yah, as u see above, the ice cream is looks like shit. My Spaniard friend said, "This restaurant won't get any customer in Spain. They do believe u are what u eat. U eat shit, that's mean u are..... *evil laugh*". Well, at least we forced him to get a try and he said the taste is ok, but still, he doesn't want to eat it. Btw the ice cream is Haagen Dazc. Hahaha..
Me and Friends
 4. 豫园 Yu Yuan
Oh men too much beautiful places in Shanghai that u should visit. Maybe u got tired to read "u should come" in all numbers, but really, u should come this place too! Hahaha.. U'll find a lot of chinese merchandise here and taste some of delicious foods. There is a dumpling shop (i forget the name), but it is really really famous. U didn't need to know the brand, just look where is the longest queue in Yu yuan near the bridge, and u will know what they are waiting for. Yu yuan sells a lot of cute stuffs but u really need have a negotiation skill. If u wanna buy a panda chain, they open about 15 RMB, and u can ask them for 5 RMB/each. Beside all the cute stuff, u can enjoy the beautiful old chinese architecture and it is more beautiful with the lamps in the night.

Ok, I really dislike this photo coz me and Jess are so small, and there is a man's head in the left side. But the background just so beautiful to be missed.. :)

Yu Yuan in the evening

Good friends met in Shanghai
I still have a dozen of beautiful recommended places to visit in Shanghai. But i'm too busy recently to update my blog. That's why I post this post first ya.. Stay tune for the next beautiful places to be visited in Shanghai. I promise will write it soon :)